Post-Schna-ulations

Have you ever felt irrelevant?

First and foremost, this is NOT A POST SEEKING VALIDATION OF MYSELF AS A WORTHWHILE PERSON. So, NO VALIDATING SCHNA ALLOWED!! Got it? Okay, good.

I have had numerous experiences today where I have had the experience of feeling irrelevant. True, I haven't interacted much with those to whom I KNOW I am relevant (and the one occasion at 6am this morning in which I DID interact with such a person was perhaps the high point of my day so far).

I had a subject at work today who, believe it or not, talks more than I do. He was an interesting gentleman with some great stories to tell. However, he had this knack for ignoring direct questions or instructions (mostly related to the tests I was administering). And he kept falling asleep on me; just nodding off in the middle of a test. Somehow, my presence didn't seem to have much impact on him. Sure, I was receptive to his stories, and sure, I kept having to wake him up to test him (so perhaps I was relevant as a nuisance??), but that was the extent of it.

Perhaps relevant isn't the best word. Any suggestions as to something better, oh masters of the english language who I know are reading this right now (and those that lump themselves with me into the know enough to speak with relatively decent grammar and that's about it category)?

Experience number two - after testing today's subject, I decided to spend my lunch break reading for class (yes, eating would have been more appropriate, but I can do that at my desk - like I am right now). Upon entering the building in which I had chosen to read, I passed a friend of a friend who I have met on a few different occasions (said person was in the company of a couple other people with whom s/he seemed to be friends). I attempted the unobstrusive smile and potential follow-up hello depending on response. No hello necessary. Said person did not just 'not notice' me, but actually seemed to make a conscious effort to snub me. Sort of a 'you're not worth even a smile' sort of snubbing. perhaps i just made a poor impression at those earlier meetings...

Third experience (I'm feeling organized today, hence the nice numbered paragraphs): I have been working for WEEKS on a manuscript to be submitted for publication. However, just about everything that was original work of mine has since been omitted from the paper (not because of poor writing style, but because we keep going back and changing our minds (by "our" I don't mean mine, but that of my superior with whom I must agree) and changing the whole point of the blasted paper). I have become little more than a secretary (and an incredibly patient one too, I might add).

Dammit - this is about the 4th time I've had to come back to this and I'm sick of reading it to figure out where I left off. So, you'll just have to GUESS at what my other experiences were today! HA! (Actually, that could be amusing. Guesses anyone? The more original, the better.).

ENTERTAIN ME!!!

****note**** i think i'm having one of those moments...you know, where you sort of witness yourself from the outside, treading the waters of sanity and madness, not sure which way you are about to go (or want to go). i sort of feel like laughing at everything - not laughing though, giggling. sort of like me on caffeine, for those who have witnessed this. only, there's no caffeine. just cottage cheese and yogurt. WOO HOO, DAIRY HIGH!!! :)

Now I get to go to class...my poor classmates.

posted by Schna @ 2:34 PM